hmmm..slept whole daes y'strdae after take myy medicine~~
realli damn tired now..all da bones in myy body stil ache..aikss..it seems tat ii hvn totally recover yet lorhh^^ suffer !!!for myy family & frens,dun worry abt miie..ii wil be strong andd take k myself de~~ii sure ii can get over him!! iis onli da matters of times...

tiz few daes realli feel soli tuh everybody who arounds miie..ii make euu all so worry andd anxious abt miie~~act ii am trying tuh bcome strong de..but duno y until now ii stil can't accept it!!ii hate this kind of feelings...realli damn!!

iis euu make miie so suffer now~~y must treat miie like tat??when ii try myy best tuh patch bck,euu jz left miie alone at playground andd go away without turn around at miie!!!tat time euu can treat miie so cruel,y not now cannot siah??wat iis da meaning orr point now euu come bck cry andd ask miie patch bck..?ii tel euu ii realli dislike it..when ii wana gv up andd get over euu,euu come tuh touch myy heart again!!!euu noe ii am a soft-hearted,so euu do like tat tuh make miie accept euu bck..?do euu noe euu realli selfish??! y euu nvr think wat iis myy feeling tat few daes ago...how ii live in ??how ii be strong tuh past it??

jz as euu say,outside mny gerl arhh..den euu go tuh find one lorhh...how come wana find miie bck..?euu ady hurt miie deeply!!!now ii sincerely told euu ii wish tuh be single andd wana hv myy freedom bck lorhh:-)ii dun wish tat euu wil come tuh disturb miie again...ii can told euu myy suffering andd hurting realli not less wic cause byy euu!!but ii told myself..if realli can't go ahead this relationship andd make euu realli so suffer,ii wil rather tuh gv up.. loves a person not onli wana him,but iis make sure him hapPily in his life!!! without hapPi wat else we 2gether again??

definitely,euu r da guy who maybe wil myy da lovest one in myy life...ii noe ii can't gv euu up..but ii wil trying~~as long as euu feel hapPi den okie ady...at least euu no need so suffer 2gether wif miie..ii not da perfect gerl..wat euu need ii can't do for euu..realli so regret..euu must promise miie tat euu must stay hapPily andd please dun do da foolish things orr act again okie??must take k urself when ii not besides euu anymore andd dun let person around euu worry abt euu...

although iis vyy vyy pain andd hurt now,but ii stil wil try tuh habit da dae without euu~~sigh!!hate tiz feeling bcome lonely~~but no choice...ii need tuh face it!!!gambade tuh myself...ii must strong...ii must strong...

2dae realli not feeling well lorhh:-)early morning vomit 2 times ady~sianz!!!
ii think ii was fell down with'flu'barhh^^tat dae walking under rains..maybe cause miie going tuh sick soon liaoO~~

haiz!!!sick iis realli a boring dae for miie...

now ii gotta tuh c doc liaoO andd bck home rest ady~~

update 2molo orhh^^

tata**

ii must be strong tuh face all of this!!!

thx all myy fren's concern andd caring~~

ii wil let da times tuh heal evrythings..

tuh cure myy broken heart...

evrythings has come tuh da end ady..

although realli pain andd hurt!!!!

but ii wil try myy best~~

ii wil a strong gerl forever!!!!

hopefully ii can realli walk out this relationship soon..

andd start a new life...

jz like ppl saying~~

love iis not just wana having him..

but iis make sure tat he live hapPily..

so ii should tuh gv up..

as long as he hapPi~~

I'm sick of crying..

tired of trying,yeah..

ii am smiling..but..

inside ii am dying~~

想到了痛，想不到如此的痛。。

一个人走迎着冬夜里的风，

忍住泪水、忍不住慢慢心碎。。

转身难回冬夜的雪陪我伤悲。。

买一杯醉买不来曾经的美~

独自面对冬夜浓浓的黑。。

不想伤悲却不能心如止水。。

爱情冬至最长的夜，

忘了我是谁！！

看着那窗外的雪，想着你。。

模糊的脸守着那漫长的夜。。

等着它慢慢变短。。

听着那幽怨的风，

触着我隐隐的痛，

陷入了爱情冬至心和泪慢慢的冷~

ii totally can't sleep last nite~damn hurt!!!

realli sad ...myy heart iis stil bleeding now...

at first ii tot ii wil be strong,

but at da last ii am tat person who iis da looser...

ii realli can't control myself...

ii nvr think tat our 2yrs,4mths&20daes relationship wil ended...

so regret we can't be longer...

so sad tat we realli walk until 'break' tiz way...

finally we have broke off..

ii lose euu,

ii lose evrythings..

da onli person ii truly cared left miie wif a broken heart..

ii din hv any chance can cherish it again~~

wat can ii do??ii realli duno..

myy mind was blank now:-)

myy tears was automatic rolling down tuh myy cheek..

it's realli hurt..

although ii noe ii should be strong...

but duno y ii can't learn it...ii am failure in this way!!!

myy heart so pain...damn!!

ii wan be strong!!ii wan be a strong gerl!!!!

hv a fanstactic saturdae in this week:-)

wake up very early 2dae lorhh..duno y cannot sleep back again liaoO...super sianz de..realli feel damn tired de but myy eyes totally cannot close up...how can like tat orhh..wat's wrong with miie again liaoO??ii oso duno...

whole half dae slack at home doing houseworks..so hardworking of miie lorhh:-0

around 7pm,ii went out wif myy buddy-Amos again:-)hahass..he brought miie went tuh Kallang Leisure Mall for ice-skating..so hapPi lorhh~~although ii duno how tuh skate but stil feel excited de..andd this iis myy first time learning ice-skating at here..feeling so good..not bad lorhh..

1st time skating realli feel so anxious andd scare lorhh..in a short 2 hours,ii fell down 4 times ady..realli so pain lorhh..especially myy knees..although now myy whole body was very pain andd fully of blue black ,but ii stil so enjoy myy self lorhh...long time realli din feel so hapPi jorhh^^ so regret tat 2dae ii stil can't skating alone..ii stil can't balancing myself in da ice..but ii stil need tuh thx a lot myy buddy recently oso keep accompny miie andd teaching miie so much..ii realli appreaciate...

after ice-skating,we went tuh eat our dinner at geylang ..erhmm..2nd time went tiz kind of place..after our dinner we went tuh east coast park again...hahass..myy favourite place lorhh:-)duno y lerhh when ii came here,i realli can feel vyy relax de lorhh..maybe can see da sea andd hear da sound of wave barhh^^make miie can temporary forget all myy unhapPiness,trouble andd vexes....we slack at there until 3 pluss jz left...

afterwards,we went tuh Sembawang Park ..it iis oso a nice place lorhh..at da opposite of sea,ii stil can see myy lovely country-M'sia JB lorhh..erhmm..suddenly make miie so miss myy hometown liaoO lorhh..stil need 3 weeks again ii jz can bck hometown:-)although iis ady quite late night jorhh but sembawang park stil hv a lots of ppl lorhh..some ppl stil camping at there lorhh^^we had our fun andd chit chat about 2 hours at there lorhh....cause da weather suddenly change andd raining unstopped de lorhh..

at da end bo bian we decide home sweet home liaoO...before went home,we went tuh having our supper at food court lorhh..hahass..act iis should be count as breakfast jorhh cause iis abt 5 pluss ady..erhmm..realli feel shiock lerhh..other persons were ready wake up jorhh but miie jz ready for sleeping lorhh...hahasss...

2dae realli a fanstactic + hapPi +enjoyable dae for miie lorhh:-)

should ii say we r patch again..??
orr iis should be say we totally din face the problems yet,so....nvr ??

ii realli vyy confusing tuh myyself...
when ii saw him...ii realli can't say out da words tat ii wana say!!
ii noe ii should discuss all da things wif him..ii should tel da problems tuh him...
ii should ask him tuh solve it 2gether....
but y when ii face tuh him,ii can't totally say out a word lorhh~~
ii seems like not brave tuh face him lerhh:-)

y???ii oso duno y..?
because ii m a soft-hearted..??orr ii not dare tuh hurt him..( a gd guy's heart)
can ii jz ignore it andd dun think so much regards tuh our problems..?
orr need tuh tel him wat myy mind thinking abt..?
ii am realli strunggle now!!!feel so hard tuh make da decision lorhhh~~
ii am being crazy soon liaoO....!!!

continuosly a week ady din sleep well de:-)

realli damn exhausted..myy panda eyes come out again~~aikss...duno y recently wana hv a gd rest oso cannot lorhh..jz thinking..thinking..andd thinking!!!erhmm..realli hope tat myy thought can be more clearly now...it seems tat ii stil can't take any action orr decision although ii had think so mny daes ady~~duno should be sad orr disappointing lorhh:-)

wat's wrong wif miie again..?ii realli duno..damn!!!

ii realli hope tat ii can hv a holidae now~ii wana myself hv a relax dae...

waiting...

最近都连续下雨的。。好讨厌的咯！！每天下雨的时间都是靠近要放工的时候~唉！如果没带雨伞真的就要天天淋雨了。。。。好纳闷，现在老天爷又不作美了，天空又下起大雨来了~这个时候下起倾盆大雨真的令得我有点昏昏欲睡了。。。好悃的！！如果现在有张大床，那可多好！！我真的就可以呼呼入睡了~~

今天没什么东西做的。。又好无聊的一天~最近公司生意真的超差的，一整天一个顾客电话也没有~~唉！！！开始担心了。。是因为金融风暴的关系吗？？而导致如此？？还是景气不好，竞争大？？真希望酱的日子不会再继续下去。。要不然我可要担心我的年尾花红了~~

唉！！这几天都心事重重的。。我和他已经是进入第三天的冷战日子了~~不知干嘛的心好挣扎，好烦奥哦！！我的选择该要如何呢？才不会使我自己后悔。。？才不会令自己那么痛苦？？是该去接受他那无理过分的要求？该去改变自己变成另一个使他满意欲望的那个人。。？还是选择放弃告别这一切。。?

好烦。。真得很累了~~我不想再一直过酱的日子了：-）

damn tired 2dae...tiz few daes ii slept abt 4-5 hours per dae onli lorhh:-)make miie totally not enough sleep!!!andd it cause miie no appetite tuh eat anythings oso..so bad mood at all..maybe it oso because somethings had happen on miie..so tat ii realli not feel hapPi in tiz few daes..da feelings in myy heart so mix andd vexed de lorhh:-)

ii realli duno wat happen tuh myself de...actually stil tot tat ii am very clearly understand of myself who ii am..but...it seems tat ii am failure in this way!!!wat da hell of myself??!!ii duno...ii realli duno wat ii am thinking abt now!!!

ii onli noe tat ii realli care abt euu..so tat definitely ii wil care all urr words oso!!but y euu din understand miie.??ii duno tuh be sad orr disappointing lorhh...

who ii am in urr heart ii reali wish tuh noe...wil it change..??orr jz forever euu set miie like tat onli..??because euu ii realli gotta be crazy ady...!!please dun treat miie like tat,okie..?

2dae ii totally not enough sleep lorhh:-)jz now around 6am pluss jz reach home~~although damn tired de but felt hapPi...myy buddy-Amos accompny miie whole nite..brought miie tuh da place wic ii never went b4~~realli relax...myy modd oso feel more better when ii c da sea in east coast...

when reached home,after ii took a warm shower,ii direct sleep like a pigg jorhh^^sleep until so sweet lorhh cause maybe tiz few nites oso vyy late jz slept...erhmm..but 2dae ii onli slept 5 hours den wake up jorhh:-) duno y can't sleep more tight again liaoO...when ii awake received msg from myy buddy again..hahass..he scared miie can't wake up lorhh cause we plan tuh went out JB 2dae..so he responsibles tuh wake miie up...hmm...

now iis around 1 pluss jorhh..ii am stil waiting him come tuh fetch miie..he realli like ger lorhh..even miie oso finished prepared liaoO..stil told miie he was on da way jorhh..but until now stil hvn saw his car lorhh!!aikss...poor man!!jz stay opposite myy block marhh..motion so slow!!hahass...

ii wana enjoy myy off dae again~~need tuh relax myself liaoO:-)
hope tat 2dae wil hv a fantastic sundae again wif myy buddy^^

* note:now miie & him was in quarrel period again~feel so exhausted jorhh..

ii realli feel hapPi tiz two daes...thx for myy colleagues andd fren who help miie tuh celebrate myy birthdae~~ii realli appreaciate andd felt so touched!!!ii realli had an unforgotten andd memorable birthdae because all of euu...

yesterdae ii stil tot tat ii wil be lonely..cause myy bbaobeii dearr got working andd can't accompny miie~but at da end,luckily ii stil got myy fren-Amos andd myy colleagues help miie celebrate myy big dae~~hahass..so hapPi andd touched lorhh:-)

at first ii met wif Amos first..we had our dinner 2gether at Vivocity Shi Shuan Stemboat Restaurant..warhh..iis realli a spicy stemboat lorhh:-)so luckily da steamboat can hv 2 types of soup..due tuh ii can't eat spicy so ii choose da seafood soup while he choose his favourite 'ma lat'soup...hahass..so funny things iis he always said he can eat spicy vyy well..but tiz time it seems tat he oso cannot tahan da spicy lorhh..lolx..his tears oso almost wana roll down ady..wakaka..

we enjoyed our dinner until da restaurant closed lorhh:-)realli 1st time ii am da last customer..warhh...a bit pai seh de lorhh cause like delayed their worker's times..aikss..all because Amos false lorhh..hahass..who asked him eat so slow worhh..

after tat,meet up wif myy collegues at jalan besar ktv...erhm...act not realli enjoy myyself at there..first time went tiz kind of place lorhh..realli not habit andd feel ill at ease~so tat ii slack at there abt 2 hours den went bck home liaoO...tuh all myy colleagues so soli ii am realli uncomfortable in tat place..so tat ii bck so early orhh..somemore got somebody was worry abt myy safety andd waited miie nearby da ktv...so ii not intend tuh let him wait so long!!!for Amos..so soli ii let euu wait so long andd din noticed tat euu so worry abt miie!!ii should learn more mature andd always protect myyself de..realli so so so so so sorry tuh let euu so anxious miie...!!!

ii reali feel so hapPi euu got so patient tuh wait miie tis sis..hahass..realli gd bro arhh..anyway,thx again tuh euu for accopmny miie whole 3 nites...ii realli appreaciate^^

tiz year ii realli hv a wonderful birthdae...cause got so mny ppl accompny miie tuh celebrate myy big daes~~

HapPi birthdae tuh miie..

haPpi BirthdaE tuh miie...

hapPi birthdae tuh myyself...

hapPi birthdae tuh miie~~~

firstly need tuh wish myself hapPi birthdae lorhh:-)hahass..ii am going older one more year again liaoO..aikss...ppl older liaoO but no money oso..so pity rite..??anyway,tiz year ii hope tat all myy wishes wil come true tuh miie de....ii am await lorhh:-)

act 2dae realli damn tired de lorhh~~y'trdae bbaobeii dearr help miie celebrate myy birthdae lorhh:-)realli hapPi,touched andd appreaciated lorhh...luves him a lot...although he can't on leave 2dae but he stil sacrified his sleeping times andd spent da times wif miie whole nite lorhh:-)so nice of him lerhh~~i realli can feel his luves tuh miie..

ii had a nice,memorable andd unforgotten birthdae nite...myy mood realli good andd so glad tat myy loves one can accompny besides miie~~even without any grand celebration,but ii ady can feel touched andd surprised lorhh until make miie wana cried out liaoO...ii can feel tat da full caring,loving andd sincerely of bbaobeii dearr~~

y'strdae bbaobeii dearr came tuh fetch miie after he finished work~so surprised he brought miie a small bouquet of flower..it was purple roses..warhh..myy favourite flower lorhh..damn hapPi tuh received it again:-)

dearr said he bought three flowers onli because it means tat ' I Love you'...so romantic of him lorhh~~blablabla...

after wait miie finished dress up myeslf,we bck tuh dear's house wic located at yishun...he need tuh take his shower lorhh:-)ii slack there a while onli..afterwards,we took cab tuh AMK kbox plaza tuh hv our k session liaoO~although 2 persons onli but we stil enjoy ourself there..myy dearr like da feel when onli both of us 2gther onli..cause nobody can disturb us..

when da clock was show at 12.00am sharp,myy dearr started tuh sing birthdae song tuh miie lorhh:-)so touched andd surprised again when he gave miie da second present...erhmm..myy dearr so funny de he always wil gv miie 2 presents whenever myy birthdae orr valentine's dae lorhh..ii got asked him reason b4,den he told miie tat he wan be more different andd special from da other ppl...cause he wan gv miie more novelty:-o...so cute of him rite..?

tiz year ii realli super hapPi lorhh..both present from dearr oso were out of myy expected de..especially da second present!!!it was a digital camera lerhh...warhh.when ii opened it realli feel shiock lorhh:-0 ii totally can't imagined it was realli a camera!!!how excited of miie lorhh~~dearr,realli thx a lots...realli feel hapPi euu so understand miie wat ii need andd wanted !!

we sing sang andd hv our fun there until 2am onli..after tat home sweet home lorhh..both of us were damn tired andd sleepy jorhh lorhh:-0 we cabbed tuh bck home again..dearr came myy house overnited...so sweet of him when we reached home..he gave miie da third surprised again!!when ii was at myy bedroom andd removed myy make up,dearr holded a swensen ice-cream cake came intuh myy room lorhh:-)warhh..realli shiock again lerhh...ii totally din noticed tat he got bought cake for miie cause when he came tuh find miie ii din saw he got brought anythings lerhh..so miracle lorhh~~ii was realli appreciate andd touched wat dear had done for miie...tiz year ii realli hv myy unforgotten andd memorable 22nd birthdae ady..one of myy wishes ii can achieved liaoO...

dearr,laopOo duno can used wat tuh describe myy mood andd hapPiness now lerhh..ii jz noe euu had done urr best tuh miie liaoO~~all of urr effort ii can felt it...thx a lot...realli thx tuh euu gv miie a specially birthdae ...ii loves euu...euu realli myy sunshine boy who willing tuh be myy side ..ii wil cherish euu forever...muackksss....

dearr andd miie in kbox orhh^^
second present from bbaobeii dearr..

purple roses from dearr oso~~touched..

myy precious laogong..ii lubes euu!!hen aii hen aii nii~

cherish euu lotss..huggs:-0

muackkkss

times realli past very very fast lorhh!!now iis almost end of October liaoO...aikss..duno wana hapPi orr sad lerhh #%?&..hapPi because myy birthdae iis coming soon liaoO ( should be stil hv 2 daes lorhh )??sad because ii will be getting older again liaoO??haiz...

so boring now de...nothing tuh do at office again~jz keep chit chat wif myy colleague andd waiting for da back home time lorhh..Lolx..so enjoy rite??hahass..onli tiz few weeks can like tat..duno y lorhh recently compny business realli worst a lot ady:-0 erhmm..duno iis it got anther air-cond service got promotion andd make us no business orr wat lorhh:-)aikss..started worry liaoO..if reali stil continue like tat,duno we stil hv any bonus orr not lorhh...scare myy boss wil say no profit earn tiz year so everybody no bonus lerhh..haiz...if realli happen ii sure wil da first person resign andd left compny de....hahass..not because ii too mind da bonus,but iis because scare da compny wil winded-up soon lorhh:-)

now dun think too much abt myy job 1st..ii noe ii should put all myy attention on myy study liaoO..stil hv 2 more months ii need tuh sit exam again ady lorhh..realli like not enough time for miie tuh prepare it lerhh~~aiks...hope tat tiz time ii can pass it wif flying colors again lorhh:-) God bless miie....

damn tired....

feel no mood andd so sianz lorhh:-)

jz holidaes came bck realli lazy tuh working orhh^^

aikss..realli hope tat ii am jobless lerhh..

no need working andd can shopping everydae~~

hahassss..can be so enjoy myy life lorhh Q_Q

but now ii noe no choice marhh...

ii gotta working tuh earn money~~

no money no need talk all liaoO...

so..force tuh be more hardworking!!!

* note:myy colleagues all laugh abt myy hair style...sad lorhh T_T

erhhmm..ii like tiz feel lorhh:-)

3 daes no need wake up at 6.30am...no need working...can slack at home just rest as much as ii can..

aikss..if stil got more daes PH iis more better andd enjoyable lorhh...but..iis impossible lorhh:-)Singapore here da PH iis reali less de lorhh~iif compare wif Malaysia stil less few daes orhh..wana wait a PH realli need tuh wait long again lerhh:-)

2dae act wana go out JB de lorhh...but myy fren told miie tat y'strdae he went out traffic was jammed andd crowded lorhh~~so ii heard like tat realli not intend tuh go out jorhh...ii hate traffic jammed lorhh!!!last time got few times experience ady make miie realli scare abt it liaoO..jammed at customs abt 4 hours lorhh..realli sianz andd impatient tuh wait so long in da crowded lorhh:-)

so due tuh this,ii force tuh cancelled myy plan jorhh..slack at S'pore this boring andd non-entertainment place again:-)erhmm..at first went tuh CWP accmpny myy bbaobeii dearr having our lunch..he so lucky lorhh always got miie accompny him eat lunch every weekend~~where got guy so lucky as him lerhh:-0 heess..(too think highly of myself jorhh lorhh!!)lolx..

after having our lunch,ii went tuh Jean Yip cut off myy long hair orhh...aikss..feel sad de lerhh..idiot de lorhh!!ii hate myy hair style now lorhh..iis not so ugly but onli look so weird de~~ii realli dislike it...myy sis,bro even myy bbaobeii dear oso laugh miie like 'shapo'lorhh..hate it!!myy band cut until so short de:-)

although myy hair look so weird,but ii stil dun mind it andd continue myy shopping again lorhh:-)erhmm..ii spent mny 2dae andd bought a lots of things de...da sad one iis majority da things are not for miie de lorhh~aikss..nothing was nice for miie de..so can'y buy anythings else:-)

after finish shopping enough ,home sweet home lorhh:-)erhmm..ii having a handache now liaoO..jz now carry so mny stuffs lerhh..ii need tuh rest a while jorhh~aikss..feel so sianz de lorhh:-)holidae almost coming tuh da end liaoO...2molo gotta working again jorhh..feel lazy ady lorhh rest 3 daes liaoO...

*note : stil hv anther 4 daes wil reach myy big dae jorhh~~gan jiong lorhh:-)

HapPi birthdae tuh myy dearest brother--JaSon!!

HapPi birthdae tuh myself oso!!!

erhmm..2dae iis myy youngest bro's birthdae andd oso myy chinese birthdae oso lorhh:-)hahass..realli so coincidence lerhh..we can celebrate our birthdae 2gether liaoO in this year..1st time orhh...Hurray ^6^

y'trdae we went out 2gether..duno y lorhh myy bro-in-law suddenly suggest brought us tuh St'James Power Station tuh enjoy da nite life in S'pore...hahass.so excited de when heard it..erhmm..came here around 2 yrs pplus ady oso never enjoy nite life here lorhh:-)

erhmm..but when we went there ady we act quite disappointed de lorhh~da PA system inside realli not good andd da music oso not so hot..wana dance oso no mood lorhh..bad de lerhh:-)

we can't realli enjoy ourself de..waste money tuh paid for entry fees onli lerhh~we slack inside about an hour andd at da end,5 persons of us went out da pub andd sat outside chit chat onli lorhh~~hahass..more enjoy de slack at outside ...enjoy ourself andd had our fun at there:-)

around 4 pluss we jz left there andd home sweet home ady ....

myy beloves sis andd miie..

three Ho's siblings ~

Four of us in St' James Power Station ^@^ Birthdae guy andd birthdae grl~~
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feel so hapPi andd surprise de :-)

received a present from myy bbaobeii dearr...

iis a Escada perfume~~sweet lorhh^@^

ii wana buy very long ady..but recently not enough money used liaoO..

so ii plan buy it on nxt month~~

but duno y bbaobeii dear wil noe tat ii wana buy de lorhh:-)

realli hapPi andd surprised ...realli thx dearr a lots ..

muackkzzz *@*

yesterdae after finish work ii spent myy dae wif myy bbaobeii dearr again...as usual,he wait-ed miie at AMK MRT station again~~this iis da 1st moment we met after quarrel on tat dae....erhmm~~when ii saw him 1st things ii realli wish tuh do iis hugs him tightly..but..ii din do it at all!!cause there was crowded ppl at there lorhh..ii noe if ii do like tat myy bbaobeii dearr sure wil shy de andd not dare tuh hugs miie too~~~hahass...so..ii gv up ..lolx..

we hv a nice andd fantastic dating again..ii like this feeling lorhh..it make miie hapPi so much even our dating jz normal,nothing special andd bbaobeii dear oso not a romantic guy!!!until now ii jz understand wat can make myself so haPpi andd always stay in good mood...ii realli like da feel when he was besides miie...no wonder myy fren told miie she was felt super hapPi when her husband accopmny her whole her off dae!!now ii can understand y she felt like tat liaoO...spent da free times wif beloved ones realli different if compared wif frens!!!

at first we had our dinner at Thailand restaurant again...both of us prefer tuh eat Thailands foods lorhh..although ii hv gastric not suitable tuh eat tat spicy andd sour foods,but myy bbaobeii dearr sometimes oso wil allow miie tuh eat..he said not frequently den can lorhh:-)hahahass..how nice iis he lorhh...erhmm..we enjoy our dinner at there..as usual again we order tom yam soup andd pineapple rice lorhh..both of this dishes we MUST order de lorhh if we eat Thailands foods..cause it realli tasty andd delicious!!!due tuh onli both of us so we not dare tuh order too much dishes if not later waste den not good lorhh...tis time we got add on 2 more dishes wic iis spicy thais chiilis prawn andd seafood asparagus...it's not bad lorhh..quite nice de:-)

Spicy thais chilli prawn^^


Seafood asparagus^^

Seafood Tom Yam Soup...

PineaPple rice

Bbaobeii dear--myy sunshine boy!!

dearr so serious lorhh even eating onli...

afterwards,we went tuh shopPing a while at northpoint..erhmm..maybe tat shopPing center stil work in progress in upgrading..so nothing shops can shop de lorhh:-)after accompny baobeii dear went tuh chong pang bought his things,we direct bck dear's home liaoO..we spent our times on chit chat while waiting for da movie's time coming...ii am feel so hapPi finally we can handle our problems probably..thx for dearr telling miie those wic ii hope tuh hear de...ii appreciate much...ii noe wat we face now andd so lucky tat bbaobeii dear euu nvr gv up miie andd always besides miie support our relationship...ii realli feel so sorry for myy sturbborn andd selfish act...wat ii did before realli nvr think abt urr feelings..andd dearr euuu nvr scold miie but contrary euu stil keep it andd forgive miie everytime!!!ii din regret anymore now....ii noe tat euu r myy sunshine who always spent urr times besides miie de...console miie when ii was sad...enjoy andd share hapPiness while ii was hapPi...support miie when ii was helpless andd hopeless in somethings problems...thx for all urr loves tuh miie~~

finally ii realised tat who iis myy sunshine ady...since 2dae ii no need so vexed again liaoO about myy relationship...ii find myy sunshine boy andd myy true loves liaoO...ii wil cherish it what GODS had give tuh miie...ii noticed tat we can noe each others from different place realli not easy...now GODS was allowed us shares our loves 2gether liaoO so ii wil not easy tuh gv up our relationship again!!bbaobeii dearr ii wil promise euu ii won't always say out da word of 'break''easily liaoO..ii wil try myy best tuh keep longer our relationship...

hahass...stil hv one more week,myy 22nd birthdae wil coming soon liaoO..realli feel 'gan jiong'lorhh!!a bit excited de lerhh~~duno tiz year how can ii celebrate it orhh....andd duno tiz year wil hv any surprising for miie or not lorhh~~

act ii hope tat ii can celebrate myy birthdae in hometown de lorhh..same wif last year,myy bbaobeii dearr can't celebrate wif miie again orhh..sad de lorhh:-)no choice orhh he can't take leave andd need tuh work lorhh~~idiot compny!!whole nxt week oso can't off lorhh..quite disappointed lerhh...erhmm..luckily ii stil hv frens at here will help miie celebrate orhh:-)

realli await myy 22nd birthdae celebration^^

ii hope tat ii wil hv an unforgotten andd memorable birthdae at this year...ii wish ii wil be da hapPiest person on tat dae!!!yeepee...

ii am damn tired 2dae lorhh:-)

y'strdae hv an arguement andd small quarrel wif bbaobeii dear again..

realli feel boring about this kind of things ady..

duno y bbaobeii dearr always wana because a small things andd problems andd starting quarrel wif miie siah??y tat euu can't believe miie de worhh??even one time oso nvr lorrhh..ii realli feel exhausted for all of this liaoO..recently we always quarrel because da same problem repeat andd re-repeat again...

myy heart now iis fulling blood de..it's realli hurt miie!!!wat ii can say ii ady explain tuh euu...now all iis depends tuh euu onli...up tuh euu if euu want thinking miie like tat..ii dun care it!!

until 2dae ii jz noticed tat ii am da loser...ii am realli not suitable as a good grl fren~~wat euu need andd request de ii realli can't do it for euu:-)even an easy things tuh let euu belief miie ii oso can't do it...ii am realli failure in this love...myy heart realli broken while ii noe tat inn urr heart ii was like tat!!!

ii realli wish tat ii hv courage tuh face this..although it's cruel but ii noe ii stil need tuh face andd handle it:-)ii wil try myy best tuh make myself hapPi again...

**true love iis when euu shed a tear andd stil wan him..

**it's when he loves another but euu stil smile andd say 'ii am hapPi for euu'..

**when all euu really do iis cry...

**andd cry onli~~

now iis around 7pplus jorhh lorhh andd ii jz reached home onli orhh..jz now accompny myy mum went tuh downstairs pasar malam walk walk~~erhmm..duno y s'pore pasar malam always same de nothing special lorhh:-)andd sell da things andd stalls oso never change de..aikss..so boring andd feel sianz..myy mum andd ii slack at there abt an hour oso can't buy nothings wic we prefer de lorhh~~

wat we bought jz now onli all da foods lorhh..erhmm..yummy lorhh:-0
quite delicious de...especially da salt chicken lorhh...ii like it so much:-)
ii eat until so full lorhh~~now like gotta vomit out liaoO...

aikss..gotta rush myy homeworks again ady...2molo wil be last lesson for costing accounting this module liaoO...stress-ed lorhh:-0 feel like din gain any knowledges de lorhh~~starting worry myy coming exam liaoO...

2dae ii am realli feel tired lorhh:-)yesterdae after finished myy class didn't bck home directly orhh^^ myy dear laOgongg came tuh find miie so tat be a gOod gf sure must acCompany him lorhh..therefore,went out wif him until around 12am just bck myy sweet home~~

after bcK home ii stil drink myy beloved mum special coOk for us @ souP...iis 'mu er longan yang yan tang'orhh...realli tasty lorhh:-)after tat,ii just went tuh take myy shower lorhh~~after finish all da things was around 1.30am ady...warhh...it was vyy late ady lorhh..if weekends iis okie for miie de..but ii stil need tuh working lorhh:-)

slept around 2am after ii answer a call froM myy fren...ii onli hv 4.5 hours tuh allow miie sleeping yerhh^^realli damn tired de lorhh while ii woke up this morning..myy eyes totally can't open lorhh...shit!!realli hate this not enough sleeping de feel...make myy mood damn down de..no spirit tuh do anythings..just keep wana sleepIng jorhh...

realli a tired andd boring dae for miie^^

times flied so fast de lorhh:-)

stil hv 11 daes onli,myy 22nd birthdae wil coming soon liaoO~~

aikss...realli hope tat da times can stop at here lorhh....

can't expect ii wil grow older again liaoO:-)

sad lorhhh~~~

have a bad stomach-ache 2dae!!!

so suffering de:-)

but stil need tuh come working....

sianz!!!realli wish da time faster past lorhh~~

ii wana bck home take a rest ady...

tired , sleepy andd pain...

Hurray!!!2dae realli a great dae for miie lorhh:-0

hahass..1st time both of myy boss oso went tuh overseas ady...

so tat nobody wil guard miie at office liaoO...

ii am freedom 2dae lorhh~~~

feel so hapPi de...can do wat ii want tuh do in office...

no need scare...no need stress...no need so hardworking...

can eat snake liaoO..

keke^^office suddenly become myy recreation world lorhh:-)

realli enjoy myy whole dae at here....

search internet..watch movie..do myy homeworks...msn andd chat wif frens...

warhh..so hapPi..joyful lorhh~~

realli hope tat myy boss wil always at overseas lorhh:-)

hahass..like tat ii no need see their face liaoO....

busy tuh do myy homeworks at office now...

myy boss not in so can eat snake a while liaoO~~

aikss...not enough time for miie tuh finish all lorhh!!!!

ii gotta more hardworking liaoO orhhh..

thiz module almost finish soon liaoO..

but ii look like din absorb all lorhh..rate:5/10 onli!!!

sigh...realli starting worry myself liaoO~~

duno tiz time exam can past or not lorhh:-)

stress liaoO...

ii wil be crazy soon again lorhh:-0

anyway,ii wil try myy best...

feel so sleepy andd tired 2dae...

y'terdae got a small quarrel wif dear laoogongg~~

but luckily now nothing ady andd was been fine liaoO...

aikss...ii slept at 2am yesterdae..

andd 2dae 6.30am woke up andd prepare myself tuh come working liaoO~~

so ii onli slept four hours onli lorhh !!!

warhh~~whole da bones in myy body so pain de..

myy pandas eyes now iis oso come out again liao lorhh:-)

myy colleagues saw liaoo all oso laugh miie must went tuh stole chicken （偷鸡）yesterdae de..cause myy eyes realli can't open de..like 睡不醒

ii realli hope tat da times can flies more faster de~~

myy eyes wana closed ady...ii want sleep liaoO...

HapPi birthdae tuh myy dearest dad !!!!

HapPi birthdae tuh Kan Wey !!!!

2dae iis myy dad's 55th birthdae & myy buddy Kan Wey's 22nd birthdae....by here wish them healthy always andd all da best in all da ways~~dad,hope tat euu can less smoking oso lorhh..ii realli worry about urr healthy ....euu r 55 yrs old ady~~must always take care urself yarhh although now mum was seldom byy urself liaoO^^feel so soli ii can't celebrate urr birthdae wif euu orhh...but da dun angry,ii stil got prepare a small present tuh euu orhh..hope tat euu wil like it yarhh^^Kan Wey,hope tat euu can enjoy urr big dae 2 nites yarhh^^ii think euu sure feel hapPi barhh cause tiz year got new gf can celebrete wif euu orhh...anyway,wish tat euu hv an unforgotten & memorable dae lorhh andd always sweet sweet wif urr lovely pie yarhh^^

so busy in office now...so headache myy stocks incorrect again!!!

realli angry tuh myy boss!!always din inform miie while take da stocks out...

kanasai...make myy stock now in great confusion....

feel like want tuh kill person liaoO lorhh~~lolx...

i'm alone in office again..so busy 2dae de^^

realli feel damn tired de lorhh:-)

y'sterdae nites ii totally din sleep well ...keep nightmare onli lorhh~~ii realli dislike all this feel de lerhh...it's realli terrible andd so horrible tuh miie...realli hope tat it was just a dream andd won't happen in myy real life~~ii noe ii can't accept it if so unluckily happen on miie:-)

ii dreamt all myy dearest frens from myy hometown y'sterdae nites..at first actually ii feel so hapPi de cause realli a quite long time liaoO ii din dreamt about them...but afterwards , da dream was realli so terrible ..ii stil can remembered clearly about all da story in tat dream lorhh~~

da story was like tat..ii was gathering wif whole geng of myy frens in myy lovely hometown..we had our joys at there andd all of us were played until vyy high lorhh:-)we were enjoy ourselves vyy much..suddenly , ii suggested went tuh PD seaside tuh hv a BBQ..i was realli miss it a lot lorhh..so all myy frens oso agreed wif myy suggestion.After prepared some foods ,we went there by 5 cars..(cause we got 16 persons)...

after an hours we reached there ady..we started our BBQ andd our entertainment at there~~some of myy guy's frens stil swam lorhh..they realli idiot de lorhh so dark oso can swimming orhh:-)we had our hapPi hours andd enjoyable time...da hapPiness times always flied so fast de lorhh...unconciously it was around 4am ady..due tuh some of myy frens stil got class on nxt dae,so we decided bck home early cause we stil need tuh spent an hour jz can reach our hometown...

on our way back home,suddenly one of our car duno why crashed wif anther car..it was seem very seriously.whole myy fren's car was 360' turned in da middle road.andd wat we can heard was da screaming sound from all myy frens in tat car onli...da car was damaged badly!!realli felt shiok andd frighthen when myy frens & ii went towards tuh tat car...all ii can saw was onli they fall down in a pool of blood..they hurt injuried!!!ii saw myy frens in a split second onli , their life were taken away,were gone!!ii realli cried out loudly andd totally can't accept it....ii can't imagined tat myy frens jz left our geng like tat!!!

suddenly ii was awake by da alarm...luckily ii noe iis jz a bad dream for miie..but maybe da nightmare too real liaoO ..so myy face oso got tears de lorhh:-)so it means tat ii had realli cried...but..ii realli hope tat it won't be happen in myy real life!!!ii dun want it~~

dreams...jz a terrible dreams!!!

现在已经是凌晨四点半了，但我却完全没有睡意咯！！！

我坐在电脑前发着呆。。。无所事事的~~

很想做功课但却怕开灯会吵醒已经熟睡的弟弟。。。

所以就只好上网写写部落格了***

好久都沒试过天空已经快亮了都还没睡的咯！！

这真的是我的第一次叻。。

在这个夜深人静的夜晚里，

我不禁想起了以前种种过去的点点滴滴。。。

好怀念真的好怀念~~

如果时间允许，我真的好希望时光能够倒流。。

好想回到过去~~

尤其是我中学生涯那无忧无虑的生活。。。

和一班疯疯癫癫的朋友~~

彼此一块无隐无私、无仇无恨的玩乐。。。

真的好过瘾的！！！

犹记得以前的我。。

偶尔在这个时刻还和一大班朋友在外头流荡的~~

在一起的节目永远都不会完的咯。。。

而我那时是多么的快乐、多么的开朗~~

但现在的我呢！！！

在这儿我过的好压力、完全不快乐咯！！

知心朋友也碰不了几个。。

如果不是为了赚钱，

我真的好想回到我那温暖的家乡。。。

从新开始我人生的第一步~~

但既来之，者安之。。

我会继续努力完成我的目标~~

给我自己一个交待。。

也许我回家乡的日子就会离我不远了。。。